Reflections

As i sit here living in my current station
My thoughts pace from past to future situations
I debate if the choices I’ve made in this life have tainted the right way i should live
I swallow sacrificial pills jus to self-heal,
I aim to have my hand setup b4 the cards even deal,
I have a wall that my emotions constantly build
So I live only for the thrills and constant laughter,
I hate screaming,
Arguing makes me sick to the tummy,
I vomit truth constantly,
And the people around me,
Seem to drop out my life
Just because i refuse to live n there lie
Or the over embellished image that they've created b4 getn to know my truth
I speak a billion and 1 oop's
And chose not to take them back
Only apologize for making u feel my max
Because i do understand my abrupt honesty can throw u off track
But holding in the facts
Can get a little heavy at times
So i know most would rather live in a lie
But i still will never neglect to tell u what’s on my mind
And if u and truth cant be in the same place at the same time
It would probably be best for you to not read between these lines.